So there were some negatives and some positives today. I didnt go to the gym. I also ate dinner too late. I also had way too much salt and fat. I had no breakfast. but the most important thing that happened today… I said no. I woke up about 930, had coffee and started my day. Ran a few errands with Ms Chocolate and then met my brother at noon. Whenever we hang out and watch boxing we wind up getting sopressata, italian bread, etc. So we went to the deli, got the sopressata, the italian bread, some fresh mozzarella, i also got a few meatballs and some broccoli rabe (i had to get something green!) We drove to the Galleria and on the way we had some sopressata (no bread for me). Then when we got back the eating started. I had a few meatballs, some sopressata, and 1 very small piece of italian bread (that was tough). Then Tic and KK666 showed up and they brought about 14 doughnuts (MY KRYPTONITE) and a bunch of these pastries from the bakery. I made coffee for everyone and sat down to drink it and grabbed one of those pastries. I held it in my hand, i even tried to talk myself into it by saying “this thing feels so light and fluffy” OUTLOUD! i actually said that outloud….lol… and then i got up and put it back. I’ve never done that before. It felt damn good. My brother said “wow thats a real exercise of willpower”. Those words have never been uttered in my direction before. It made me feel good. Then for dinner i had some green giant veggies and 2 burgers. They were 90 % lean and i made em pretty small, i put fat free cheese on em. So we can either focus on the negative or the positive. I really appreciate all the comments people have left, they are all very telling of the kind of relationships i have had with people throughout my life. There was a comment left by someone Ive known for 11 years and one left by someone i met this summer for about 45 minutes. The person i met for 45 minutes managed to say the same thing as the 11 year person but in a kind and considerate way. Now i know there is fine line between being nice and enabling. I dont expect to hear “hey way to go on the burgers and sopressata Dante!” lol, but lets just keep in mind what one of the wisest men ive ever known told me “Honesty, without compassion, is cruelty”. Until next time…

pretty cool huh?