Back on the Beam

So, today was day 2 of eating well again.  I feel good, im a little fatigued but if memory serves me right i’ll have much more energy and feel better by tommorow or thursday.  I am back to an egg white omlette for breakfast, salad with grilled chicken for lunch and veggies for a snack.  Then for dinner (both days) I had some chicken with eggplant zucchini and onions.  As well as some string beans and asparagus.  Then for a snack i have my sugar free popsicles.  today i had my snack at about 1 and i was in school until about 8.  I started to feel light headed and dizzy so i grabbed a protein shake.  It was like night and day,  i felt SO MUCH better afterwards.  Then i came home had a bit of a late dinner and here i am writing to you guys.  I can use all the support i can get, thanks for all the kinds words, thanks to my lovely lady for helping me with my meals!  Until next time….

I remember seeing this pic and thinking i looked fat... HA!

Oh Boy… I’m back.

So i was away for a while and eating like i was going to the electric chair.  I have a great excuse though.  You ready for this one?  So i was a finalist to be on a popular weight loss show but i found out the other day that I didn’t make it.  Good excuse, right?  It’s all true but it was a bit of an excuse to eat what i wanted, and boy did i eat what i wanted.  I am back up near my highest weight.  You ready for this?  362.9.  Its really embarrassing to write that.  Jesus.  I broke a chair yesterday, God’s  wake up calls.  I started back on my plan.  I am going to eat well this week and reward myself on  Super bowl Sunday.   I know a 362 lb man shouldnt be thinking about rewarding himself but it gets me through.  I am really sick and tired of living like this.  This is it.  I am in 100%.  No excuses.  The time has come.  Until next time…

Who is that skinny guy?

I lost weight… but how much??

Bobby Baccala Jr

So i was disappointed on sunday because i gained weight and was back up to 346.4.  So i was very strict and did a cleanse this week.  I ate an egg white omelette with veggies for breakfast every day.  Had salad and veggies for lunch and Chicken and veggies for dinner.  And then no snacks!! I ate my last bite no later than 6pm every day (except last night, when i had my jobs Christmas party).  The results showed.  I weighen in at my lowest total in a long time today, I was 332.7!!  I know i wont lose 13 lbs every week and that if im not careful i can put it right back on but i am still excited!! I worked very hard this week and it showed.  Im back, baby!! Until next time…

BACK BY POPULAR DEMAND!

I really dont want to look like that on the beach this summer

So i had a rough few days.  I am trying to remember what happened, its all a big blur…lol.  I was bad this weekend.  On friday night i went out for chinese and had chicken and veggies in brown sauce with brown rice.  Not so bad, but not something i need to be eating.  Then saturday (as though i hadnt had enough)  i had chinese for lunch and then went to a party in the evening where i had some ziti and a piece of a 6 foot wedge.  Then later i had chips and dip.  On sunday i had a steak for lunch, more potato chips and a couple (more like 5)  of mini cakes from the bakery at my friends house.  Then to top it all off, i figured i had done so badly already, why not go all out, right?  i had a cheeseburger deluxe for dinner from the diner.  BLAH! So i am right back to near where i started from.  I am 346.4.  So hard to get rid of the weight and so easy to put it back on.  I am doing this 4 day green and white cleanse that Sam put me on to.  Today i had an egg white omelette for breakfast.  Salad and veggies for lunch (no nuts and no cheese).  I drank about 100 ounces of water.  I had some chicken and veggies for dinner.  And thats it!! no snacking, no ice pops, and i just drank some hot water with lemon.  Hopefully this will put me back on the right track.  I have an appointment with a Dietician a week from tommorow, so hopefully she will help me.  I realize that i have to help myself first and foremost and i didnt do a very good job of it this weekend but im right back on the horse.  Until next time…

CHRISTMAS CANDY!!

HAHA, i like this pic

so they had some Christmas candyat work and i indulged a bit.  Not too bad, it was vermont maple leafs, ever heard of em? they are so good, just like pure sugar, they melt in your mouth.  I had em around lunch time and it was after my salad and before my veggies… Let me tell you, it was hard to eat veggies after eating those things.  But otherwise it was a pretty good day.  The semester is coming to an end so i am hoping to start going to the gym more.  Things are gonig good, i feel like im back in the swing of things, thanks to everyone who reads and leaves comments, it means a lot to me.  Until next time…

Will I die from being fat?

This is the thought that crossed my mind today.  I know its not a very positive thought but it crossed my mind nonetheless.  I couldnt help but think that if i dont do something about it ASAP that it will only be a matter of time before my weight starts causing me health problems and then ultimately kills me.  Now is the time to do something about it, not tommorow and certainly not monday.  I am in for the long haul.  Today was another good eating day.  Oatmeal for breakfast, veggies and salad for lunch and 2 shiskabobs for dinner.  I also drank more water today, trying to make that a habit.  Things are back on track, lets keep em that way Until next time…

Hugging Rosie...

I Want it NOW

from last Christmas

I know that i cant undo years of not taking care of myself in months but it doesnt change the fact that i want it NOW!  I want the hard work to pay off right away.  I ate pretty well this weekend although i did have some homemade doughnuts on sunday…mmm.  I had a good day today, i went back to bringing the salad and veggies to work.  I had a healthy dinner, chicken and veggies.  If i could eat like this every day i would be in business.  I know its a marathon and not a sprint.  I have to get back to the gym!!  Ive been really bad about that.  Ive been thinking about the summer and how cool it will be to be more comfortable on the beach.  To not have to worry about breaking a beach chair or not being able to get up out of the beach chair without going down to my knee first, how embarrassing, what am i 75 years old?  lol…  Until next time.

Better Day…

My attitude was definitely better today and so were my eating habits.  I had my oatmeal for breakfast, then 2 chicken wraps for lunch.  Low Carb wheat wraps, grilled chicken, low fat cheese, peppers and onions.  2 hard boiled eggs and some cucumber and onion salad for a snack. 

Thanksgiving @ Grahampa's

Then for dinner i had a steak salad.  I had some wheat thins for a snack earlier and then i’ll have my ice pops tonight.  Much better day, right back on the beam, i have to blog every day!!  Thanks for reading everyone.  Until next time…

Having a rough go of it…

So i decided recently to blog every other day and that was a mistake.  I started falling off the wagon a bit.  I was doing well all the way through saturday and then on sunday the madness started.  I knew i was going to go off a bit but it spiraled out of control.  On sunday i started the day with oatmeal so that i wouldnt go off too much.  I went to my friends house and he had ordered chinese food AND pizza.  I didnt have to eat any of it but i CHOSE to.  I feel like such a fat fuck right now.  I weighed in at 341.7 tonight.  I started at 347.4 got down as low as 334.1 but here i am right back up.  I feel like all the hard work of the last month is down the drain.  I am really feeling frustrated.  I have no plans to stop.  I know i have to persevere.  So anyway, i had a bad sunday.  Then this week i decided i was tired of the salad and decided to bring wraps.  I had fajitas for lunch monday and tuesday and then some whole wheat pasta salad for lunch wed and thurs.  Last night my acting teacher took us out to eat for the holidays like he does every year and i ate way more than i should have.  We went to Carmine’s in the city.  I had a little bit of everything.  I think that the low carb/low fat way i was doing things is the way to go for me.  I had too much fat and WAY too many carbs this week and you see the results.  I also havent been gonig to the gym.  I need to get back on the beam.  I need to blog every day, go back to my eating regimen and start going to the gym at least 4 times a week. 

Avoid destructive thinking. Improper negative thoughts sink people. A ship can sail around the world many, many times, but just let enough water get into the ship and it will sink. Just so with the human mind. Let enough negative thoughts or improper thoughts get into the human mind and the person sinks just like a ship.  <—– I found this quote online, i am feeling a bit on the negative side so i need to hear it.  Sorry to all the people who come here to get some inspiration.  Im sure that tommorows message will have a much more positive spin.  Until next time…

This is what i feel like...

Thanksgiving ++

Thanksgiving @ Grahams

I had a really good thanksgiving, i spent it with family and no drama.  It was good, i have a lot to be grateful for.  I ate pretty well, i had some turkey, string beans and corn.  I also had some mashed potatoes and sweet potatoes but not a lot.  for dessert i had a sliver of coconut custard pie and a sliver of flan, not too much at all.  It felt good to be good, ya know?  today i did pretty well, i had oatmeal for breakfast then 2 chicken shiskabobs for lunch and then chicken scarpiello for dinner.  tommorow i wont be perfect but monday will be right back to normal, i want to switch up the lunch this week , any ideas??  i need a break from salad for a bit.  Until next time…